Suddenly I Sea

 

The post title was unashamedly stolen from some graffiti I saw at Birling Gap, which made me smile.

It's been another few weeks of ups and downs, but I'm focusing on the positives, still standing, and ploughing through. At times I've had enough energy to go for a short run. But there have also been difficult, stark reality moments, including a need to be physically helped into bed. 

Some wonderfully warm weather has been very welcome. Summer! We enjoyed a few amazing sunshiny days in Brighton, which coincided perfectly with some of my 'good' days. Even the intensity of the heat in London was appreciated, following the train journey south, with its incredibly efficient air conditioning - I was sooo cold when I arrived! We had a really lovely time there, especially walking The Seven Sisters, which had been one of the reasons for our visit. The views were incredible! We took the bus from Brighton to Seaford, then walked the trail to Birling Gap, where we rewarded ourselves with ice-cream and a dip in the sea, before catching the bus back to Brighton again. 

Brighton was fantastic! Although it was only a short stay, it really felt like we were on a proper holiday, and it gave me a much needed lift. We spent time exploring, seeing the sights, and relaxing on the beach. Even my bikini got an outing! The Brightoni360 gave us an incredible view of the city. And, of course, we treated ourselves to a walk along the pier, followed by a fish and chip supper, down by the shore.

Back at home, I've been relaxing and spent a lot of last weekend sitting in the hammock swing seat, reading my book. I've also been keeping watch over the little pond. It's amazing what I've noticed when sitting for a while without any distractions. A few visiting Dragonflies; so many butterflies; and the bumble bees that are happily nesting in the old tree stump beside the dry stone wall. The nasturtiums are beginning to flower  now, and the not-so-little lemon trees are sprouting new growth. The cats have been seeking out shaded areas of the garden, or disappearing through the long grass into the field. They appear to be quite happy in spite of the heat. 

This week, I've made some more progress on my crocheted squares. I would be thrilled if I could manage to finish the blanket in time for the colder weather, but I'm not going to put any pressure on myself. I just want to enjoy the process, rather than hurry it.

It's hard to even think about winter, seeing as today is the hottest day of the year, so far. As usual, I was up early, so I opened all the windows wide enough to allow the fresher morning air to drift through the whole house, before closing them again to make sure the heat stays outside. I keep it nice and cool by ensuring all the curtains and blinds stay shut throughout the day. I'll water the garden much later, when the sun begins to set behind the trees. 

I've yet to rediscover my rhythm of posting here again, but I'm hoping this will come in time, once I begin to feel better. Until then, I really hope life is treating you well. And that you are also enjoying some beautiful summer sunshine. 

Back soon. 

J. X

 

A Hint of Summer

I love this time of year. The air is warm and sweet; pathways and lanes, begin to narrow, as cow parsley and pignut spill over in abundance, brushing against my legs as I walk by; Soft wisps of cloud drift across the bluest of skies.  I feel myself exhale, with the anticipation of an approaching summer. I'm extremely aware that everything feels slightly different for me, even now. Life is still off-kilter, with so much still uncertain. 

The surrounding towns and villages are seeing more and more visitors, which means that on a Bank Holiday weekend the car definitely stays at home. I don't even attempt to drive anywhere later than mid-morning, as I don't have the patience, nor any desire to sit in traffic. Instead, we go down to the lake. A picnic, some people watching, always paddling :) There are quiet spots, a little out of the way, just as long as you know where to look. 

And the weather! Hasn't it been absolutely fabulous. It felt as though summer had actually arrived, until this weekend, at least. But then, the gardens will appreciate the rain. Mine is looking quite a bit different this year. The new gate is in place, creating a more private, secure area. And the wildlife pond is a very welcome new addition. My new garden furniture has already seen some use, which is more than I can say for last year. And night time bat watch has also returned, featuring Mog, myself, and also an occasional glass of wine, while I enjoy the overhead display.

It is an incredibly busy time at work. I'm still really enjoying my new role, even though it has changed beyond recognition, since the start of the year, due to the absence of a colleague. I've had a lot to learn in a very short space of time, but everyone has been so encouraging and supportive. I really hope this might become a permanent position for me, especially as they've been so pleased with my performance. But I am aware that there will be more organisational restructuring, moving forward, so I'll just have to wait and see. 

My health continues to be my priority. For the moment, I seem to be taking one step forward, followed by two steps back. On my good days, I am only able to achieve what I could have previously managed on a bad day. But, I suppose, some progress is better than none at all. I'm just getting increasingly frustrated at feeling rotten most of the time. It doesn't help that I've been in a lot of pain this week. I'm taking control of what I can - eating a healthy diet, getting a decent night's sleep, and slowly increasing the amount of exercise I am able to take. I'm still not feeling any better, but it's early days. 

Thank you, as always, for your lovely, comments and messages. 

Back soon. 

J. X